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Friday, November 25, 2011


life gets complicated for me nowadays


*clears cobwebs*Okay... I have decided to try to revive this blog of mine. Spending the 'pains; of downloading an application on my phone named 'Bloggeriod' to help me create a post when I feel like blogging, even though I think nowadays people seldom read blogs.. All on Facebook or Twitter.. But nevertheless, I try to keep this blog alive because it means a lot to me. (Though I never update for so long, and might take even longer to update a later post. Tsk.)
side note: 'Bloggeriod' is somehow a very easy to use application. it saves your draft, add images, post your draft. It's simple! There are other applications in the Android Market that do that.Ooh btw, I have a new phone, not really new though. Since January this year. SAMSUNG GALAXY S I9000. Yeah baby! Haha!! Even though it's not as cool as Samsung Galaxy S2, but come on, I bought it before it was released! Haha! =)
Alright, I will start off from recently... I have officially O-R-Ded on the 5th of August 2011!! Nice and cool dare, even though I supposed to be ord-ing on the 7th August as I enlisted on the 8th Oct 2009 (enhanced batch). But who cares?? Haha!! Weekends for 7th so I have my happy, sweet and earlier ORD. =D
Ooh yeah, everyone said NS sucks, it truely is for me, most of the times when there were ever lasting unfinished work and events. It kind of drained me out. As usual, messy place to be in, instructions weren't clear, and misleading. Lots and lots and lots of field camps. I remembered the days where we barely touched our bed and the whole company was like 'empty' for like quite sometime as one week following the other, we had to go for outfield and field camp exercises. Freaking tiring and screwed up sometimes as we often went there one day earlier than the others, and came back one day later than the others. So if the field camp was like 5 days supposedly, we have to book in and stay in camp for like 7 days. -_-
Worse was behind. We didn't get to bathe, have proper food, not in field camp yet but in other camps and in worst cases and often we were the ones being forgotten. A lot of times we thought we have done the most jobs and shits but yet, there're no recognition for us. Demoralised for us especially when we came back seeing other people having fun, having BBQ in other companies while we are like gosh shagged like hell and noone else is there to help us with our stuffs. Bad huh? Yeah I think so too. A lot of stuffs more to say, but I guess it's not very appropriate to list them here. But nevertheless, I'm kind of proud that we made it through, being the pioneer batch of MSCs, even though we complained a lot, grumbled and swore like crazy as if everyone on earth has offended us, but still, we pulled through them and ORDed.
People thank their commanders after they have leave the camp usually, and that's what I'm gonna do next. Special thanks to (even though I know it's kind of late to say thanks) my 4 Vehicle Commanders (others have 1, but I had 4!), who took me through the field camps in 2SIR. I bet they must have swore before taking me, as it's really stressful leading the whole convoy of the whole biattlion.
1) Guan Han.He's my 1st VC who actually went through the super fierce period with me as a point vehicle and led me through all those obstacles, taking good care of me (I did take good care of him too!). We went through a lot, and I really learnt a lot through his guidance, even though both of us are newbies. Haha! Everyone else in the company is a newbie btw! LOL.I remembered the times we sat on the top of terrex, saying everything under the sun, watched stars, moon and shooting stars (twice somemore!) while resting. He did sentry duties even though he was damn tried and didn't scold me at all even though I may have made mistakes, though at times I know he almost did but held back. =pReally had a lot of memories and even my vehicle troops missed him, his craps when he went to airforce and kept asking me how's he every now and then. He went to airforce after the shittest ever stuff by the end of last year but failed his training during his last few test and came back to 2 SIR again after we finished everything.
2) Boon HouMy next long term VC who went through the rest of the major shits with me, like the Diamond Plexes (if I spelled correctly), which involved driving on expressways and public road, with me leading the whole convoy. Damn awesome and cool, and I felt as if I were the king of the world as there are escorts and all vehicles moved away for me, but not some motorbikes who thought they are damn big and squeezed through the way from my blind spot. If I didn't notice them, they would be underneath my vehicle tyres and I wouldn't even have noticed anything.He spent those tough times with me like Atec2 and many others as well. Ooh ya, if I never mention, I bet no one knows that he's actually my course mate. I know his twin brother as well, Boon Kiat. They are damn alike I swear. Maybe not now, because of the hairstyle and such but they looked damn alike back in Poly days. Ask Russell Leong (who was in the same class in poly, same company in NS and now in SIM UOL as me), and you know. Boon Hou is my senior now in SIM UOL as he went for bridging course whereas I didnt.
3) YYEveryone call him YY, and I also didnt know what's YY stands for except it's his initials. For simple sake, as his facebook name is, he's called Elwin. He has been my VC for 2 times I think? Even though he maybe not one of the best VCs around, but he still tries his best to be one, and with lesser experience than the regular VCs of the 'combat' team, he's really learning a lot and displayed his 'never-say-die' attitude. He's a very nice guy too, bought muachee for me even though I didnt ask him to. Haha! He's damn nice lah, and the muachee is BIG PACKET one somemore, making my other peers damn jealous. HAHA!
4) BrandonHe was the last VC, and took me only once, for the most relax outfield, but the one of the significant ones, the exchange we had with the US army troops. They may have their striker, but we showed them our Terrex and they did drove some of our vehicles at speed of 80km/h, but I wasn't there to experience it. Would be damn cool if I were to be sitting in one of those. He's also the less experienced VCs, even less experienced than YY, more blurr than anyone else, but still, leading the vehicle through everything. Damn nice and cool to have him as my VC as well. =))
Yup, and to my officers-in-charged, Andrew Patrick Hill and Sebastian Kong Fu Seng, thank you for your guidance and leading. =))Not forgetting my platoon, Bravo, even though we may have some quarrels and arguments about stuffs every now and then, but we have gone through so much shits together together, as a whole and that we survived!! I remembered the days at Sembawang where we moved our beds together to play cards, and chatted like there's no tomorrow, played Street Fighter on our iPods, played D&D, Risk, music,laughed like mad, getting our golds in IPPT together, being the fittest platoon, except for Shu Han who excused lower limbs and cant do anything. Haha, but wow, come thinking back, we really have been through a lot. Haha! Thank you you guys. =))And the rest of my company guys, my troopers and troop commanders and anyone in Army who made my life easier in NS, by having fun, making memories, thank you you guys! =D
That's about the summary of my NS as a NSF. My reservice will start the following year 2013. Hopefully it will be in my holidays, I dont want to postpone it and join other ppl in other company.

After NS, I have gone back to studying. SIM UOL Banking and Financial Services. Back to my old course in Poly. =))Russell is here with me again. Haha! Wei Jie from my NS also joined us in this course, but because Russell and I we have some modules being exempted, so some of the modules we took are different from Wei Jie.
Right now I'm taking Intro to Econs, POA, MATHS1 and Financial Intermediaries. FI is for year 2 module, but somehow I took it now, but still we have to take it sooner or later, so might as well take it now as we can upload another module, to make the rest of my 2 years after this year be easier and more relax. =))
Studying after a so long break due to NS is really horrible. Brain is not really functioning as well, but it gets working after some time. Right now, brain is working, but the thing is, there're a lot of stuffs that I don't remember reading during my Poly days, so somehow I like a 'newbie' in my course again. Haha! I am trying very hard to understand everything I have learnt in lectures. Damn tiring sometimes because it's a 3 hour lesson. Often after 2 hours my brain will start to slow down and switch off sometimes, even though there's break in between but it doesn't really do the trick sometimes. Hmmm.. Gonna do somet




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

2:16 PM


will u make mine better?




Saturday, May 21, 2011


life gets complicated for me nowadays




Day and Night. By Tanya Chua

Too much of a good thing
Could just never be enough
And it brings you down
It makes you fear you'll lose it somehow
And that's how you make me feel
And that's how you make me feel

So can I need you in my life?
Can I keep you close to me
Day & Night?
Can I need you forever?
I wanna have you close to me Day & Night

I want something that's beautiful
A love full of emotions & desire
And something oh so innocent
And yet so far beyond words
That you can't explain



Thank you that special someone out there. It says it all here. =)




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

10:12 PM


will u make mine better?




Thursday, April 28, 2011


life gets complicated for me nowadays




蔡健雅-Goodbye & Hello 空白格 (MV)

其实很简单其实很自然
两个人的爱由两人分担
其实并不难是你太悲观
隔著一道墙不跟谁分享
不想让你为难
你不再需要给我个答案
我想你是爱我的
我猜你也舍不得
但是怎么说总觉得
我们之间留了太多空白格
也许你不是我的
爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择
但它也可能是我们的缘分
我想你是爱我的
我猜你也舍不得
但是怎么说总觉得
我们之间留了太多空白格
也许你不是我的
爱你却又该割舍
分开或许是选择
但它也可能是我们的缘



Listen and understand the song...

English translation done sloppily by me. :x (because of someone named Lua Chin Wen Benjamin, who doesnt fully understand the lyrics)

Its actually very simple, and very natural
Both parties have to play their part in a relationship
Its not that difficult, its just that you are being pessimistic
There's just a wall which prevents me/you from sharing
Don't wish to put you in a difficult spot
You don't have to give me an answer anymore

I think that you really do love me
I bet that you also cant bear to leave
But how to phrase it
I always find that there's a lot of space in between us

Maybe you dont belong with me
Love you yet i still need to let you go
Separation is maybe an option
But at the same time, its also maybe our fate.




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

10:20 PM


will u make mine better?




Saturday, April 23, 2011


life gets complicated for me nowadays


Something to share with everyone out there. Definition of what a friendship is.

True friendship is not when you go to school and hang around with someone just because you have no one else to chill with. Its not calling someone up when your bored because they are fun to talk to. Its not when you cant think of a birthday gift and end up buying your friend a wal-mart gift card. Is not when you have to talk to someone about something you don't particularly care about (like how much snow we got last year) to avoid an awkward silence.

Friendship is when you love someone with every ounce of your being and genuinely want them to be happy even if it means sacrificing something your self to make them happy. A true friend is someone you can talk to about your feelings, someone you can tell things you could never tell your family or even your partner. They are someone who you don't have to talk to but someone you want to talk to; someone you will go out of your way to be with. Friendship is when you love someone so much you want to hold them and never let go, someone you want to rest your head on and cry, and you would let them cry on you too. Its someone you can talk to about things you disagree on and end up being closer for that disagreement. Its when you think about someone and how close you are to them and how much you love them and you smile and are happy all over.

Friendship is when your love for someone exceeds your need for them.




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

2:53 AM


will u make mine better?




Monday, February 21, 2011


life gets complicated for me nowadays


I thought it would be easy not to take the initiative to start talking and being nice to everyone, doing the stuffs for them and be the scapegoat for them.

Yes, after last night and this morning, I realised, it's easy. At least I tried not to take the first move, not to talk to some.

Last night after I booked in, during lights off time, I heard coughings, from who I know of course. Not buying herbal tea, as told not to, I decided to go to sleep.

Next morning, I woke up, thinking maybe breakfast? Then I thought, you might want too, ' free breakfast, that's the reason why you might want to book in last night instead of this morning'. But thinking again, let me be selfish and go back to sleep, and wake up eat my subway cookies. Surprising, I left half a cookie thinking you might be hungry.

Last night when that someone went to buy coffee for u, I thought, okay, maybe that's what u always want.. Coffee before sleep would make you go better. I didn't bother much, even though I have told you how much that person has gone to have your attention, but it seems like you are happy with giving him the attention he needs. So, forget it.

Not speaking to u in the morning, and wanted to run as fast as I can, partly because maybe that's the way I can do to vent my anger and frustration.

Be selfish at times, that's what I want to be. No more Mr Nice guy everytime. Tired..

And, I will see later if you still concern about this friend over here, for the TSR book if you guys have gotten, in preparation for TSR test tml, that you would spare a thought to get me a book to study. If not, you really have forgotten this friend.




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

9:59 AM


will u make mine better?




Sunday, February 20, 2011


life gets complicated for me nowadays


Okay, I know I have been quite down this few days, but not to worry, I'm picking up myself I think.

Everyone's moving on, so I guess it's time for me to move on and leave others. Will do my best not to rely on people too much, as from what I see, alot of people don't like that. Will stay away from all, be independent and show everyone who Jian Zhou really is. I don't like rejections, and I think noone likes...

No 'best friend' unless that person is really worth, like Chrispin. I don't want to make myself suffer and do the things which others don't seem to appreciate, from my point of view.

'Maybe their best are not my best' This phrase I will always remember forever. Thanks Hui Qi. You are always my confide and know me the best. =)

So.. Move on Jian Zhou, everyone has their own life, so you should live in yours too. Make them revolve in your world, not you revolving in theirs, because it's very tiring to do so. Understand? =)

If you really don't like that person and you have to live with that person like in your bunk, best way is really, ignore. OR.. Treat him normal. Know your enemy best because what they are thinking you will know it best. Dont fall into their trap of making you seem piss and not yourself, or rather, the bad side of you. Remember this Jian Zhou.

Besides, this is part and parcel of life you have to go through. Everyone does. Next time in working society, it's the same. Everyone has their fake side, you cannot be naive enough to trust them all. That's survivability. Humans do that all the time to survive in nowadays life. You will have to learn and master it too. Be truthful, but lie at times to ensure everything goes well, if not you will be 'eaten'.

So yeah, buck up Jian Zhou!! =DD
No more worrying about your friend get stolen, because if it does, this proves your friendship not worth pulling back. Just be yourself, that's what true friends see in you. Dont have to put in the extra extra effort to keep the friendship.

Be truthful and thoughtful for yourself. Let us be selfish at times. =)




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

6:18 PM


will u make mine better?




Wednesday, January 26, 2011


life gets complicated for me nowadays


TANYA CHUA'S CONCERT!!!!

9TH APRIL 2011

SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM

8PM

Anyone interested in going? =DDD

Been listening to her previous album, Goodbye and Hello and it really deserved to be the album of the year in the chinese music industry, as set in 2009 in Taiwan.

Been listening to it for only 3 days and I would say I love all the songs in the album. This is the first time I love all the songs in an album. It's very Tanya kind, and it really shows her hard work put in, her singing style and not very common kind of music style actually go very well together. Besides, it's her lyrics that made the songs meaningful, and enlightened me in some ways.

As in most of her songs, including the other albums, she protrayed how one faced in a situation and how one most likely will feel in that situation. Indeed, her songs are very calming and addictive, at least to me. =)

As compared to her newer album, I still preferred the previous one. But that doesn't mean I don't like the newer one, but just that it felt better in the previous.

Right now, I'm awaiting for her brand new English album, and yes, she's coming up an English one this time. I think this is what she eventually wants because she still speak better in English. Haha! =x

And her first ever public concert in Singapore after so long! She's been out in the chinese music industry for 13 years now. I'm very excited about it. Anyone wants to go can buy your tickets from Sistic from 28th Jan onwards. OCBC credit members can enjoy 10% discount from now till 27th Jan. So hurry! Grab your tickets now!

Tell me if you are going too! =)




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

12:31 AM


will u make mine better?






life gets complicated for me nowadays


Surprised that I'm blogging at this time? Me too. I'm not suppose to be even at home, but then same old thing, Kranji Camp OSAT cock up, managed to leave there only like 9pm, after the bus left at 7.30pm, no dinner for us. Cool huh? Luckily CSM gave us nights off and let us go home, if not I was still wondering how. LOL.

Today wasn't a very good day. Jonah and I got injured. Jonah slipped and fell from ramp, scratched his right elbow, I injured my left ankle (old injury) when i tried to jump down from like 0.8m wall when I was doing guard at the rear gate for low-loaders. -_-
Drew the keys from the guard room, after Russell went to return the keys, even though he supposed to pass to me, but apparently he didn't know. Haha, and I don't even know if I could draw the keys, but drew anyway because noone was around and free to help. LOL.

Hmmm.. Okay, at least today I get to touch my bed later and wake up later. 9am Kranji for Bravo, but I got MA, so AMQ camp for me after my MA. =xx

ciaos~




things get complicated sometimes
but then there will always be a way to solve.

12:09 AM


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